too much on my mind

there must be too much on my mind. i woke up well before my alarm this morning, much to my annoyance. i felt frustrated by the fact that i could not simply roll over and go back to my slumber. many important thoughts crowded my mind as they still do. i havent had enough sleep lately. i got up really early yesterday. then i had a difficult day at work yesterday. not to mention various other items i have been wholeheartedly ruminating over.

i felt so annoyed that i was losing precious sleep. but i am thankful for the early awakening actually. the Lord sometimes gets us up in the middle of the night because he wants us to talk with him about our situations and struggles. this is what i did. i prayed. i talked to God. i questioned. i explained my heart. i attempted to begin laying my stress at the feet of the Lord, the only one who can handle the whelming feelings that i have. he will take them and hold that stress. he will be the one in control and, if i let him do that, i will be at peace. if only i will let him.

now i launch into another day of working with the feeling of anxiety pressing on me. i am just asking that the Lord take these cares and worries for the people in my life, little clients and big people in my personal life, and give me the wisdom with how to address them myself without feeling like i am going to lose it as i do at this moment. deep breaths. relax. pray. all things are possible with the Lord's strength.