talking to Julie the other day, we were chatting about and analyzing my dancing skills. we laughed and exchanged knowing looks at how i was when i first started dancing. it was three years ago back in Texas when i went to a salsa dancing class at her church. we also went two-stepping at Cowboys in San Antonio a few times.
when Julie and Ginger moved up to Washington, we made a few visits to McCabes. i have to say that dancing was extremely frustrating for me. i loathed that Julie could watch a line dance for ten seconds and then hop nonchalantly onto the dance floor and be essentially perfectly moving her feet in synchronization with people who had done it dozens of times. and Ginger, she could two-step with any guy and make it look like they had been dance partners for life. i so wanted to be a good dancer because i really enjoyed this form of artistic and physical expression. but i was awkward, slow to learn, and needed to be taught the same freakin' move repeatedly before i even weakly got it.
after a year of consistent two-stepping, i can say i feel much more confident. don't worry, the awkwardness has by no means disappeared, i still have to learn things a few times before i get them, and i have elbowed guys in the face a few times when they spun me or tripped over my own feet ungracefully. however, i am finally able to feel satisfied with dancing and not at times overwhelmingly frustrated at my inadequacy as used to occur. i guess it is practical proof in my life that if i put my mind to it, take the time and long-term commitment, and am willing to put my pride on the line repeatedly, i can then do anything i want to! it helped me catch on a little faster to dancing in Costa Rica so i didnt look like a total fool. julie actually said the other night something about that i am finally getting the dancing thing; i am learning faster; i am not so awkward. ah, what a beautiful compliment and reassurance to be told. here's to my first visit to Cowboys, two-stepping in the living room of Q302, and having friends who inspired me to dance it up.
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